It becomes a burden when your heart is no longer into it. Sigh. I love my job, I love my workplace, I just don't love the pay!!!! Yeah, I know some may say teachers are supposed to be candles, burning themselves for the sake of others. Who authorised that btw? Some guy who wants to make teachers feel better (er...I don't) or some guy who wants to shut teachers up for whining about pay, thus creating a pseudo belief that we are supposed to sacrifice ourselves, our needs and fancies so that others can bloom, flourish, grow, fly, soar...
Would the sacrifices we make be all worth it? All those stay backs in school so that the jerk who doze off in your class can be personally tutored by you all over again? All those time your kids are left in the care of some bibik from 7 am to 6 pm everyday , so that you can make a person of someone else's children? Praying at the same time that bibik doesn't try to feed your child cooked cat's brain juz because you refuse to raise her pay to the ridiculous RM 800, and because you reprimand her for watching too much sinetron?
It's sometimes not worth it coz parents can also make your life hell. They give their kids all sorts of crap advice and pampered them too much, and worship the ground they walk on just because they do so well in exams.
It is also sometimes not worth it coz you do get some rude, ungrateful bunch who can only know how to complain.
Sunday, November 9, 2014
Monday, November 3, 2014
The Musings of a Culinary Challenged Mom
It's been almost a year. Me being a homemaker. My husband and children has endured my horrible culinary skills, horrendous housekeeping and at the same time putting up with me being monstrous and ghoulish at times. Sigh...my aim is to be a calm n composed mom...how la! Anyway, I've. decided to keep a blog to see how far i have come especially in the cooking area. My mom never trusted me in the kitchen and I don't blame her for it. My attempts to cook anything as decent as masak kicap always end up in a disaster and the dustbin. Yes, I am that stoopid.
In my first few months becoming a SAHM, hence having to cook consistently for the family always end up with me being frustrated and angry for being so stupid. The taste is inconsistent, one day it's alright, the next day it's blerghhhh! Not to mention the many food I've wasted due to excessive buying and only using it once.
Now, though I am still pretty much dumb in the kitchen, but there have been a few food that I managed to 'master' and it could come out pretty decent. My masak pedas. And the secret is? To blend the shallots and garlic and ginger together with the small dried shrimps known as udang kering. And maybe a bit of galangal. You see, the thing is I think my mom had told me once that was how she does her masak pedas/sambal but I guess I did not pay attention enough to remember that method when I do my cooking. And the thing about cooking is that you have to keep doing it, to learn from it. Mistakes are there for you to learn from, though there are days you feel that how could someone with tastebud could even get this wrong? And how could you correct on that mistake if your attempt for the recipe take the span of months in between? Last time, when I was working and juggling motherhood and wifehood at the same time I only cook for like once or twice a month. Bad eh? I know. Looking back, I find it unbelievable that I did not try harder to provide my family and myself some decent, safe and healthy food. Joe is the type yang tak kisah. No time to cook? We eat out. Bad bad bad. Had I married a man yang "ohhhh I mesti makan kat rumah" I would have perhaps put Nigella Lawson to shame I 'm sure, or..er...ended up divorced.
Nevertheless, I am still faraway from being a decent cook. I still have my stoopid kitchen days, where everything just go horribly wrong and you just feel like throwing the pots and pans out of the window. But at least now, my baby steps are sometimes rewarded with "oh...ok next time perhaps kalau I buat macam ni...I need to put extra basil..."for example. The directions is a lot clearer. And Em makes less faces now when she is made to sit and eat her meals.
In my first few months becoming a SAHM, hence having to cook consistently for the family always end up with me being frustrated and angry for being so stupid. The taste is inconsistent, one day it's alright, the next day it's blerghhhh! Not to mention the many food I've wasted due to excessive buying and only using it once.
Now, though I am still pretty much dumb in the kitchen, but there have been a few food that I managed to 'master' and it could come out pretty decent. My masak pedas. And the secret is? To blend the shallots and garlic and ginger together with the small dried shrimps known as udang kering. And maybe a bit of galangal. You see, the thing is I think my mom had told me once that was how she does her masak pedas/sambal but I guess I did not pay attention enough to remember that method when I do my cooking. And the thing about cooking is that you have to keep doing it, to learn from it. Mistakes are there for you to learn from, though there are days you feel that how could someone with tastebud could even get this wrong? And how could you correct on that mistake if your attempt for the recipe take the span of months in between? Last time, when I was working and juggling motherhood and wifehood at the same time I only cook for like once or twice a month. Bad eh? I know. Looking back, I find it unbelievable that I did not try harder to provide my family and myself some decent, safe and healthy food. Joe is the type yang tak kisah. No time to cook? We eat out. Bad bad bad. Had I married a man yang "ohhhh I mesti makan kat rumah" I would have perhaps put Nigella Lawson to shame I 'm sure, or..er...ended up divorced.
Nevertheless, I am still faraway from being a decent cook. I still have my stoopid kitchen days, where everything just go horribly wrong and you just feel like throwing the pots and pans out of the window. But at least now, my baby steps are sometimes rewarded with "oh...ok next time perhaps kalau I buat macam ni...I need to put extra basil..."for example. The directions is a lot clearer. And Em makes less faces now when she is made to sit and eat her meals.
Today i'm making Thai green chicken. let's see how that'll turn out!
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